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It has definitely been one hell of a week! Things are moving so quickly, I hardly have time to keep up. I didn't do thankful Wednesday last week because I was actually driving home from Texas all day and I completely forgot yesterday. Geeze, I suck. SO! I'm making it up! Today, I am thankful for unanswered prayers. From the time we are children, we are raised to believe that if you pray for something it will happen. But the fact of life is: sometimes it doesn't. And that is miserable. Sometimes you pray so hard for something that you want so badly and it just doesn't happen for you. And that sucks. I am super thankful to have begun developing the insight to realize that some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. There have been many points in my life that I have said, "God, please just let this one boy like me...", or "I know we've been fighting and things aren't always good, but please make my relationship work", "please, just let me lose a billion pounds and look like Kate Moss", or "please, please, PLEASE say you'll keep Twinkies around," and the big guy upstairs was like...ehhhh, I don't think so. So when I realized that he was so NOT gonna give me what I wanted, I--naturally--threw a tantrum. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DIDN'T BRING MY BOYFRIEND BACK TO ME! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LET ME EAT A LARGE PLATE OF CHEESE FRIES, A HALF GALLON OF ROCKY ROAD ICE CREAM, AND A WHOLE LARGE PIZZA AND LET ME GET FAT! WHYYYY DON'T I LOOK LIKE KATE MOSS? WHY DO YOU HATE ME? But, looking back on it: my unanswered prayers were the best things that ever happened to me. I didn't get my ex-boyfriend back because he was a tool and there was someone else that was SO meant for me. I don't look like Kate Moss because if I did, I'd look like a pre-pubescent boy and I couldn't deadlift 235# (No offense, Kate. You've looked in a mirror, you know what you look like.) And, I got fat eating crap because that's what the fudge happens when you eat crap all day long! (okay, this one was more like God saying..."Alright, eat that shiz and see what happens to ya.") So I am beyond blessed and thankful for those prayers that I prayed that went unanswered. I am thankful that God (or whoever you believe in/whatever name you call him) had enough foresight to say, "nah, ultimately, that shiz is not gonna be good for you." And hold out on me. I am extremely fortunate to be growing as a person everyday and realizing for myself why those prayers at that time, would have been awful for me in the long run. So yeah, thanks, 'n' shiz. Couldn't have done it without ya.