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This is probably going to be a really weird post, but I've GOT to talk about it. I am busy. I have a ton of shiz to do everyday. I have a full time job, I have about a million on the side money making schemes, I run this blog, make times for friends and family, find time to support my kiddos (students), find time to lesson plan, grade at least 184 papers, cook, clean, get my grad school shiz together, pick up a second job and I train for CrossFit. (reading this all written down just exhausted me) I have a crazy schedule. Seriously. A friend of mine just told me today that I'm the "queen of multitasking". My schedule usually goes something like this: 3 am: wake up 3-445 am: cook and package all my food for the day, get dressed for workouts, pack my bag with clothes for actual work, make sure I have everything (I always have to check twice…mainly because I'm forgetful) 445-455 am: drive to Red Stick CrossFit 5-6 am: WOD 6-615 am: Get ready for work in the RSCF bathroom. 615-630 am: Drive to work 630 am-245 pm: Educate kiddos 'n' shiz 245-300 pm: Drive back to Red Stick CrossFit 300-500 pm: Strength workout or work on shiz I suck at. 500-515 pm: head home 515-545 pm: Cook and eat dinner 545-730 pm: work on whatever the hell else I've gotta get done that day No later than 8 pm: BED. And I try to fit everything on my to do list in during the day. And sometimes, my to do list is LONG. Don't get me wrong, I make time for friends and all that, but I gotta make sure I get the things I need to get done, done. I said all that to say this: this is my schedule because I want it to be. Do I have to workout at 5 am? No. Do I have to package all my food? No. Do I have to go to bed ass early to be up early? No. I do it because I WANT to. Just like I want to be fit, I want to be healthy, I want to be happy, and I want to be the best me I can be. Yes, this schedule is hectic and crazy, but I love it. I get to do shiz that I love all day (minus grading papers. I hate that). Things I don't like: When people bust my balls about my schedule. I have a limited window of time to hang out with people and I will hang out when I have time. But don't bust my balls because I'd rather be sleeping when you want to go out drinking. I don't drink anyway (with the exception of special occasions. Or a long day at work. Or students that drive me to drink.) When people try to call me a "granny" or "grandma" because I go to bed early and need my rest. Chances are, your granny doesn't deadlift 250#. *unless she does, in which case, your granny's a badass.* I've literally had 4 people call me some form of "granny" in the past 4 days. I get sleep because I need it. I have to rest my body because I need to prepare myself for a long day of extreme hyperactivity. (if you've ever seen me at 5 am workouts, you know exactly how hyper I can get) Forgive me if I'd rather sleep than go out drinking and have random guys air hump me and call it dancing. I'm honest. I will tell you when I can hang out and I'll tell you when I need sleep. Trust me, you don't want to hang out with me if I'm tired anyway. I get really cranky. When people tell me what should be important to me. This is the one that I struggle with the most. I have always been a people pleaser. I like to make others happy--and a lot of times, its to a fault. I used to literally sacrifice the things that I wanted to do, goals that I had, and things that would make me happy, to do things for other people. I made a resolution earlier this year that I would be more selfish (you can read about that here). Long story short: I would stop letting people dictate what I'm going to do and when I'm going to do it. I will do the things that it takes to reach my own goals and make me happy. By any means necessary. I have finally gotten to a point where I really love my life. I really love what I'm doing, what I'm going to do, and the goals/dreams I've set for myself. The last thing I appreciate is people trying to throw me off that track. Because of this journey, I am a better, happier person. My friends and family have noticed. I've never been as happy as I am when I'm running through this crazy schedule everyday. I may sometimes be exhausted. I may be overwhelmed. I may feel like I can never do everything I need to do. But I have a genuine smile on my face. I wouldn't trade this psychotic, overwhelming schedule for anything and I only want people with me who want to keep that smile just that: genuine.
